Did I lied to myself?

It was true I couldn't run from lying everyday...

I know...

I wish to kill her...more or less...
Make her dissapear...

The destroyer of my life...

And I make sure her life couldn't, wouldn't and never be in peace!

But when he speaks to me...

I would feel very lifeless...

Where my life could be...

Was it really her?or was it him who destroyed my life?

I felt like an idiot...

Yesterday...He asks me...Do I love him?

I would surely said 'yes, i do love you...'

that was yesterday...today, he asked me...

do I love him?

And I was unable to reach out a letter to speak out my ability to feedback ended...

I can only reply...a nod...

That I knew...Neither I was confused...

I never knew this was coming...

The man who stand so proudly in front of me...

Fooled me and think I wouldn't know...

The man who put on lots of hopes in me,
With all my will I didn't crush them...

But when I'm putting on lots on hope in you...
You crash them just like that without feeling the guilt inside?

Who are you actually?

Who are you...

And I could wish for you to just stay away from me for awhile...

I'm sorry...