Did I lied to myself?

It was true I couldn't run from lying everyday...

I know...

I wish to kill her...more or less...
Make her dissapear...

The destroyer of my life...

And I make sure her life couldn't, wouldn't and never be in peace!

But when he speaks to me...

I would feel very lifeless...

Where my life could be...

Was it really her?or was it him who destroyed my life?

I felt like an idiot...

Yesterday...He asks me...Do I love him?

I would surely said 'yes, i do love you...'

that was yesterday...today, he asked me...

do I love him?

And I was unable to reach out a letter to speak out my ability to feedback ended...

I can only reply...a nod...

That I knew...Neither I was confused...

I never knew this was coming...

The man who stand so proudly in front of me...

Fooled me and think I wouldn't know...

The man who put on lots of hopes in me,
With all my will I didn't crush them...

But when I'm putting on lots on hope in you...
You crash them just like that without feeling the guilt inside?

Who are you actually?

Who are you...

And I could wish for you to just stay away from me for awhile...

I'm sorry...

I'm kind of a disable now...

I know it might sounds weird....
BUt it is...
IT's like I'm disable to know the facts...

Becuase it was hurting me, I felt so hard and I can't stop my feeling to cry...

And now I know the feeling of dissapointed...

I cried so badly...that I lost my ability to write stories...

A better stories...I only write sadness...and sadness seems to be my priority...

Stupid!

It was even more stupid! I was lied...
I was fooled!

Like a filthy stupid DONKEY>?~! WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TO FOOL ME LIKE THAT! I'M NOT CHILD ANYMORE!!!!!

Fool like that person is terrible!
I should have never trusted ******

Stupid me!!!!